the job search

Well, as many of you know, I recently parted ways with that friendly corporate coffee shop. I was gone the entire month of June visiting my family for the first week and then at superWOW with Brock and Auny.  When I got home from the three weeks of camp my brother Brian, his wife Shannon and my awesome nephew Jake were here to visit for the 4th of July.  

The day after they left I hit the ground at full force.  I've been searching for a job like no one's business.  I'm slowly running out of money and now I'm getting nervous.  God has provided for me in awesome ways.  I just don't know how the bills are going to be paid.  I have been hired by one interview but it doesn't start for another 2 weeks or so and will only be 15 hours a week...(i.e. not enough to pay the bills).  

I write this to ask that you join me in prayer this week that I find a full-time job, but it can't be that simple.  I need to feel a bit of accomplishment so I'm praying that it be a job that I find fulfilling in one way or another.  I'm on my face right now in desperation.  I don't like to ask for my own prayer request very often but I am at that point.  Please pray that by the end of the week I will have a job and will be able to understand how my bills will get paid.  Thank you in advance.  

I'm angry and most likely you will be offended, but I'm not sorry

Today I stumbled on a picture that shocked, angered and hurt me. I won't go into details what it was, but I've been shaken up all night because of it. This is what I would consider to be the icing on the cake for me when it comes to the poor display I've seen of people who claim to be Christians but take advantage of the grace that God has given us. Yep, I said it taking advantage of His grace....

Why is it that we have forgotten that we are suppose to live above reproach? Just because we are covered with grace does not mean that we are given this: do whatever we please and whatever makes us happy card. Being a Christian does not mean that you are able to go get trashed on Saturday, and show up to church on Sunday. THAT ISN'T ENOUGH! I'm over people thinking that being a believer means just believing. Someone tell me where in the Bible it says all you have to do is pray a prayer and then go on with your daily lives.

I'm not saying that I'm a perfect being, that is not capable of making mistakes. Daily I fall short, that's what makes me human, but as a Christian I don't live my life to please me. I don't get where this self-centered, blindness has come from. I hurt for the way we have let Christianity be about a feeling, about making people comfortable. No where does it say that if we choose to follow Christ our lives will be comfortable.

I write this because I'm hurting. Paul said it best: I am jealous for you with a godly jealousy. I promised you to one husband, to Christ, so that I might present you as a pure virgin to him. ( 2 Corinthians 11:2) I'm jealous for you because I want you to get it. Jesus didn't die on a cross so we could say a prayer and go on living our lives without an ounce of change. He didn't call us into a life of comfort and ease. He called us to be servants, to be ministers and to be different. He called us to go and tell the nations, to feed his lambs and take care of his sheep, (John 21;15-19).

peace out

Tomorrow is the series finale of the reality drama called "Lindsey the Starbucks Barista." Many would look at me and say wow, not the smartest time to quit a job and not know what's next. (Trust me, I've said the same thing to myself.) I feel like I'm graduating high school all over again. The moment where reality kicks you in the butt and you realize you are about to take a step into a completely new territory. I will be honest, I have no idea what I am going to do come July. I've got not a single lead on a job, not a single idea of where to send my resume, shoot, I don't even really have a resume anymore. Any suggestions email me... lindsey.davis83@gmail.com (yep, shameless plug for myself... you're lucky I'm not listing my skills and job history on here!)

I do have to say that as aggravating as the last few months have been at work, as tense and toxic as the environment was, there will be people and moments that will be engrained in my being for the rest of my life. I'm thankful for everyone that has left my store before me because if they were all still there, I probably would not be leaving so easily, ok not everyone that left before me, but those of you that counted, I'm pretty sure you know who you are! About 3 months in to working there I was pretty miserable working there, I really didn't have friends and couldn't tell you a single thing about any customers. One day it changed, I put effort into getting to know people and that's when I started to enjoy it, when I started enjoying the people on the other side of the counter. I won't lie and say that everyone was pleasant to see, but there were a handful of people that if they made an appearance, I was happy to see them and no matter how stressful the day was, it brought a smile to my face. That's what I will miss the most, actually.

I can't believe I am taking time to write a blog solely on my time at Starbucks, but here I am and it's almost done, the job and the blog. :) Tomorrow, I will put on that nasty green apron one last time, I'll fake a smile with some customers and I'll embrace the small moments I have with others. Either way at the 3:15 p.m. central time I will walk out of the store and yell PEACE OUT FOOOS!

dreams.

It's been a while, and I haven't quite known what to say, but here I am. Mainly because it's 4:30 in the morning and I'm not sure what else to do at this time of night/morning.

I've had a whirlwind of a few months, during the motocross tour I was on I was completely broken. It was 2 of the hardest months I have experienced in a long time. I never appreciated community more but I also never felt so alone. In that time, God revived in me something I had forgot to do. Dream.

When I was young, I dreamt big. Whether it was to be a huge fashion model, or to have that one guy notice me, (the guy that didn't know I existed). I always had something in my mind, and I couldn't wait to go into my fantasy world each night before i went to sleep. The world where everything was right, and I wasn't awkward and everyone paid attention.

I'll give you this, some of my dreams...no all of my dreams were pretty self-centered. I lived in a world where I got what I wanted and didn't have to suffer. Somewhere along the way some of those dreams died. Most of them died as I got older, naturally. Some were crushed and others were just not something that was suppose to happen. The problem was, I forgot to make new dreams.

I can pinpoint it specifically, when my mom got sick the last time. The only dream I had left at that point was for her to help me plan a wedding and to be with me as I had children and to have my best friend alongside me when I really needed her. Along with her, that dream died.

So fast forward exactly 3 years from the last few weeks of her life and I am in Florida with 5 of my closest friends. For the first time in months I am feeling a bit of a healing after the crazy life I had been living. I had already made a commitment to start refocusing, and re-dreaming...what a better place to do that than Disney World, right? In the past 2 months, God has been doing a number on me, pulling me closer to him than ever before.

I started living by a verse: I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. (Phil. 3:8) and I have taken a vow for the next few months to clear my head of everything but God and trusting in Him.

In-coincidentally, (I'm sure,) I was given an ultimatum from my employer, forcing me to leave my job of the past two years. Something I had been wishing for, for quite some time. (Some dreams were kept alive! :) ). In 4 days, I will be done with that job. I will leave 2 weeks later for a 3 week job at a summer camp with my friend/bossman Brock and when I return life will be very different. I've decided to let cyber world know what is going on in my life for one reason, I need prayer and support. I had already taken a vow that has put me on a path of learning to trust in the Lord more, and to completely walk in the path he has for me, taking out all other roadblocks that keep me from focusing on him. He has given me dreams unfathomable that I am not sure how to achieve but I am confident He does. I can't lie and say that I'm not scared though. God is good, and I trust His intentions but I'm scared.

So that's the update on my life. I'm not sure what will happen in the next few months but I will be sure to keep you updated because I do enjoy blogging, just kind of forgot how to like so many things in my life. Geeez.

well, it's now 4:50 am and I believe I may be able to go back to sleep now. Maybe I'll sleep long enough to have a real dream that's very exciting!

love and laughter.

a dream come true

i've always wanted to live in a musical. now courtesy of mr. perez hilton i found this video. i think it's pretty self-explanatory. if only i would have been there! :)

one moment...

have you ever thought about how one act, one split second, can change the ENTIRE path of your life? free will, that's what it is called, right? yeah free will, the choice to make the right or the wrong decision. it's true, we are not perfect, after all we're mere humans.

it can be scary to reflect on how some moments could have changed, possibly ruined you. to know that a moment of weakness could have altered your life forever. thank goodness for grace. God's relentless grace that covers us, that even in our humanity uses those moments to restore and renew us. even though we chose a different path than the one He may have had planned for us initially, there's always a way back, or a new path just as beautiful as the first one.

i'm not an expert on this subject, i haven't really studied up on the righteous path, or delved deep into the word to know if there is one specific path intended for all of us. i do know that i have made many mistakes in my life, and somehow the Lord has never given up on me.

on the contrary, there's also a bit of excitement when you think of how you got to this very point in your life. When you reflect on the choices you made, trials you went through and the elements that were involved in getting you to this very second. for example, i'm writing this blog because i was reflecting how a possible moment that undoubtedly would have changed the entire course i am currently walking down. even in writing this i am realizing how incredibly vast, great and wonderful our Lord is, and i am thankful. thankful that we as humans are given choices, and that as a Christian, i'm not given an easy way out. i am faced with challenges each day and sometimes i don't come out entirely proud of the choice i made, but a long time ago i made the ultimate choice to follow and serve Jesus and although i'm not perfect i strive to make Him proud.

in one moment your whole life can change, and with this moment i give you the choice to learn more about Grace. after all, we were given free will.

foxy lady

this past weekend was valentines day. those of you that know me know i'm not the hugest fan of the day. maybe it's silly of me but i've never really liked it, too much pressure for those who are with someone to please each other, there's an excessive amount of hype over this day and i've just never really bought into it. this year i was extra excited to be gone on valentine's day and to be on the road.

as i was unloading our new merch, i discovered some posters with waterguns on it. i got a great idea. make a valentine out of it.




everyone was a huge fan of it. we had riders, audience members, staff all sign it. jessica, justin, and i played a game out of it to see who got the most valentines to them. (see...that's what i'm talking about!) well, to be honest i never really counted to see who won but i claim i did, and here's why, i got the longest message written to me.

AND I QUOTE:

"To a really sweet, cool, foxy lady who always has a smile on her face and has always been a friend, keep it up baby, someday you will catch the right one, maybe me." -Norm Hall #62

i'm a foxy lady. who knew?! :-D anyways, it was a fun day.

now it's off to texas, 2 more weeks left. pray for me this weekend...it's getting kind of rough out there.